NEW LYRICS!

Halloween, Born Strange 2012

I would've drank alone tonight, it's not a pretty sight
It's better if we take this glass together
And keep em coming all night long, we shout out another song
Every word is aching to matter

I know something is happening here
You've got that look in your eye my dear
Let's blow the rest of this lingering fear
We won't remember how it started

Are you gonna show your guts?
Gather your bones up, and wear em on the outside
Somebody to love, filling with new blood
We are getting we're getting alive

In my brain accordion, there are secrets there are sins
I really can't expand my mind this time
There's so much I don't wanna see
You laugh and you agree
The two of us are walking the line now

I know something is happening here
You've got that look in your eye my dear
Let's blow the rest of the lingering fear
We won't remember how it started

Are you gonna show your guts?
Gather your bones up, and wear em on the outside
Somebody to love, filling with new blood
We are getting we're getting alive

I'd love to be
Only happy
I'd love to be
Only happy
So fuck the rest of em
Baby let's party
So fuck the rest of em
Baby let's party

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Blitzed, Born Strange 2012

I know you are who you are
The one who always gets kicked out of the bar
The one who fucks around til he's numb
And I'm the one who's playing dumb

I know what's right
But I find a way to totally lose sight
I'll be fine
There are so many fish in the sea
To waste my time

I won't say I failed
I just tried to find my bliss
And I got blitzed
If you need me, boy
That ship has sailed

If I had friends, you'd never know
They only show up to say "I told you so"
"You always love them too much"
"You always give too much up"

I know what's right
But I find a way to totally lose sight
I'll be fine
Can't we just drink away, drink away the night?

I won't say I failed
I just tried to find my bliss
And I got blitzed
If you need me, boy
That ship has sailed

Listen baby I'm a smart girl
I'm so amazin' when my guns are blazin'
So what happened to the smart girl?
Sorry to find, he fucked me blind

You don't want me, but you want me there
You prefer girls with brown eyes and curly hair
I guess I knew that nothing would come
Ain't it something to trust someone?

I know what's right
But I find a way to totally lose sight
I'll be fine
Can't we just drink away, drink away the night?

I won't say I failed
I just tried to find my bliss
But I got blitzed
If you need me, boy
That ship has sailed

No I won't say I failed
I just tried to find my bliss
So let's get blitzed
If you need me, boy
This bitch has bailed.

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All Lies, Born Strange 2012

She's so much younger than me
She's got the body I need
She's got command of the room
She's gonna have it all soon

I can be twisted and mean
I am afraid to be seen
I disappear in my beer
I say what you want to hear

I'd leave it all on the line
Got a titanium spine, I'm a tightrope walker
I'm the one who drew the route
I've got no doubts
I am some big talker, huh

It's all lies
I've got the better part of half a mind
To just hide in fear
Honestly I don't know what I'm doing here
Time never goes slow
So I'll watch the world, safe, from my window

He says til death do us part
Why should I question his heart
He wonders when I'll be happy
I wonder if it's even in the cards for me

In my dreams I'm brave and brazen
Laughing in the face of reason
And when I see that self on TV
She's superhuman, gorgeous, skinny

She'd leave it all on the line
Got a titanium spine, she's a tightrope walker
She's the one who drew the route
She's got no doubts
She is some big talker, huh

It's all lies
I've got the better part of half a mind
To just hide in fear
Honestly I don't know what I'm doing here
Time never goes slow
So I'll watch the world, safe, from my window

I'd leave it all on the line
Got a titanium spine, I'm a tightrope walker
I'm the one who drew the route
I've got no doubts
I am some big talker, huh

It's all lies
I hit the ground, grab at the sky
I trust, I fear
I make more mistakes every year
Time never goes slow
Before you know, you are grown

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Dream of the Chelsea Hotel, Born Strange 2012

Is there a name for us, just shy of growing up
Hiding in the noise, we're lost little boys
Go on and follow she, faking so authentically
We've all been set adrift, maybe directionless

Punk rockers, poets and queens
Would-be geniuses and petty thieves
Just wanna drink til we're dead
Like Dylan Thomas did
My mind's playing tricks on me
Three decades of dreams
Is this where we should be
Are we really where we should be?

They closed Max's Kansas City, but we've got new mythology
Can't afford the Chelsea Hotel, still I feel that I knew her well
Downtown once upon a time, go-gos in the bathroom doing lines
Split a bottle of Jameson, but we'll remember everything

Punk rockers, poets and queens
Would-be geniuses and petty thieves
Just wanna drink til we're dead
Like Dylan Thomas did
My mind's playing tricks on me
Three decades of dreams
Is this where we should be
Are we really where we should be?

I gotta know, are we on the right track?
Cause we're just meteors looking for an impact
I gotta know, are we on the right track?
We're just some meteorites

Punk rockers, poets and queens
Are we geniuses or just petty thieves?
We'll let it go to our heads
Like Edie Sedgewick did
My mind's playing tricks on me
Three decades of dreams
Is this where we should be
Are we really where we should be?

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Jukebox Dive, Side of the Hill EP 2011, Born Strange 2012

I just found myself, can’t give it up
But you keep filling up my cup
Who told you you should say those things to me
Who told you you should sing me off to sleep?

Gotta be some way to hold on to
My peace of mind, and still hold you
I think you could see me through dark days
We’ve both got some darkness in our veins

This is a record that my daddy played
Jesus and Mary Chain
You came with these maps just in time
This is the place I’ve tried to find

I’ll go out searching for that jukebox dive
And stay up drinking with you til the sunrise
I just gotta know, how’s it gonna be
How’s it gonna be when you love me?

I only love the boys whose words are raw
I only love the boys who write me songs
I’ve always cried out with no response
This heart just wants wants what it wants

This is a record that my daddy played
Jesus and Mary Chain
You came with these maps just in time
This is the place I’ve tried to find

I’ll go out searching for that jukebox dive
And stay up drinking with you til the sunrise
I just gotta know, how’s it gonna be
How’s it gonna be when you love me?

All of those thoughts, don’t hold them in
And I’ll write my story on your skin
If this is how a beginning feels
What will we do when it gets real?

Well, I’ll go out searching for that jukebox dive
And stay up drinking with you til the sunrise
I just gotta know, how’s it gonna be
How’s it gonna be when you love me?
(repeat)

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Caterpillar, Side of the Hill EP 2011

Last night, I swear,
I was a very hungry caterpillar
Is this right? Now my face is foreign
I’m just trying to harness
All of those weeks spent in darkness
Guess I’ll just regress or get restless
For what’s left undone

I know what’s coming
I have heard the whispers that the time is short
I know what’s coming
Still I’m racing to get to the start
Of the next adventure
And maybe no one will hold my hand
But the next adventure
Is a thing that I can’t plan

From this height, I can
Watch all of the people
Laugh and fight, but do they feel me flutter?
Though I am wise and lovely
I am oh so lonely
How I would die to be just
Green and hungry again

I know what’s coming
I have heard the whispers that the time is short
I know what’s coming
Still I’m racing to get to the start
Of the next adventure
And maybe no one will hold my hand
But the next adventure
Is a thing that I can’t plan

Everyone says come on get happy
Seize your moment, quiet your psyche
But no matter how far I get, my feet feel heavy
Everything just rushes by
I want what’s next, I want my history
Want to love everything that I can see
How come it’s not that easy?

Seems like life
Is just about waiting
For flight. Wondering,
When will there be color
When will there be water
When will there be another
Three weeks like that?

I know what’s coming
I have heard the whispers that the time is short
I know what’s coming
Still I’m racing to get to the start
Of the next adventure
And maybe no one will hold my hand
But the next adventure
Is a thing that I can’t plan

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Twelve Secrets, Side of the Hill EP 2011, Born Strange 2012

I know the fall you’re waiting for
I will meet you there
My skirt will move the leaves
When you look at me

I wanna tell my sister
You wanna tell your dad
But we are undercover
Keep it between each other

I know this time is different but I can’t say how
I will always picture you as you are now
I know this time is different but I can’t say how

I never thought I would
Find somebody, find somebody
This somebody, this somebody
Oh and we’ll adventure
Though we got no money
We got no money
No money, no money

You said that you would drive
Because I’ll never learn
Glad we agree on where
These secrets that we share

We’re not without reason, it’s all in the book
The song the band was playing and the pictures we took
We’re not without reason, it’s all in the book

I never thought I would
Find somebody, find somebody
This somebody, this somebody
Oh and we’ll adventure
Though we got no money
We got no money
No money, no money

I can’t read the future but
Surely I can read your face
Baby we can rip out the sutures
New skin grows now in their place

I never thought I would
Be so ready, be so ready
Feel so steady, I feel so steady
Even though my insides
They beat so heavy, they beat so heavy
So heavy, so heavy, so heavy, so heavy, so heavy, so heavy, so heavy

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Side of the Hill, Side of the Hill EP 2011

I can smell the winter leaving
This’ll be our fourth season
When we met seems so far
Tequila in the back of the bar
Now we are so much more who we are

You see me untouched, unplugged
Without my face made up
My mother said, when I was an infant
I’d stay up crying so I wouldn’t miss a minute
In a way, I don’t think I’ve changed for an instant

We’re both little on the side of the hill
That graffitied spot where the kids drink still
And it’s been too long not knowing my heart
I run out of words when I get to this part

I believe in the music you make
And that you’ll love me through all my mistakes
So bear with me while I get my footing
People have left me who said that they wouldn’t
Will these arms always be the ones that took me in?

I have caused my parents distress
I’ve kept myself from my own success
But you’re by me when I look over
We’ll lay shoulder to shoulder
And never collapse into each other

We’re both little on the side of the hill
That graffitied spot where the kids drink still
And it’s been too long not knowing my heart
If I look to you, would you have words for this part?

Look at the horizon bubble
Oh- I am the worst kind of trouble
But the concrete kisses me
Even stars fall gracefully
I am slipping where I don’t mean to be
And the ground takes me like it’s so easy

I see you when your hair’s a mess
Cause you’ve been sleeping on my chest
You were always big-eyed and quiet
Your mother wasn’t lying
I think I can trust you enough to try it

We’re both little on the side of the hill
That graffitied spot where the kids drink still
And it’s been too long not knowing my heart
It’s been too long, too long

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Dead New Yorkers, unreleased 2010

The difference between you and me
Is you’ve already pounded these streets
But I can still remember remember the heat
How they first felt beneath my feet
My Bali Ha’i
Where concrete volcanoes scrape the sky

I never wanted a new life
Cause in New York City shit stays open all night
And I can’t leave the ones I love
But don’t it seem like everybody does?

In seven years all that’s changed
Is what these six strings can play
And how many friends have moved to L.A.
And how the MTA gets worse everyday
She’s been my wife
But watch it cause she’ll suck your life

Miracles aren’t really my thing
I can’t do anything about who you’ve been
I can’t change the words inside of your head
But let’s go- I’ll bring you back from the dead
Let’s go- I’ll bring you back from the dead

Little fish in this big dirty pond
Maybe we could see what lies beyond
I know the songs about the tramps that run
Just never thought that I’d write one
But it’s true
I could live anywhere with you

We could stand to breathe new life
If we find fame or just some stars at night
And we can chase down what we love
Cause don’t it seem like no one ever does?

I know that miracles aren’t really your thing
You can’t do anything about who I’ve been
And you can’t change the words inside of my head
But let’s go- you’ll bring me back from the dead
Let’s go- you’ll bring me back from the dead
The road will bring me back from the dead

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Born Strange, Born Strange 2012

I was born strange
With a comet’s name
Trying to find a way to exist on this plane
I’ve heard tell
I had a rebel yell
I gave em hell, yeah I gave em hell

Well maybe I was crazy
Looking for someone to call me baby
Well maybe I was crazy

Because I left myself with those sad nights
On fire escapes smoking Camel Lights
Saying, "If you wanna just skip this drama
Go on take your clothes off like you got no mama
Take your clothes off like you got no mama, no mama, no mama"

I was nineteen
When he set me free
I moved quickly cause there’s so much to see
I’m just an alien
Swimming in this skin
I thought by now that my life would begin

Well maybe I was crazy
Looking for someone to call me baby
Well maybe I was crazy

Because I left myself with those sad nights
In piss-smelling bars on the Lower East Side
Saying, "If you wanna just skip this drama
Go on and take your clothes off like you got no mama
Take your clothes off like you got no mama, no mama, no mama"

Yeah baby I was crazy
None of those boys could ever save me
Yeah baby I was crazy

Because I left myself with those sad nights
Sitting on the curb in my ripped up tights
Saying, "If you wanna just skip this drama
Go on and take your clothes off like you got no mama
Take your clothes off like you got no mama, no mama, no mama"

I was born strange
With a comet’s name
Trying to find a way to exist on this plane.

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Press-on, unreleased 2010

I know someday I’ll sit and laugh about
The summer he left me for Amsterdam
Heart bleeding in my hands
And I know I’ll forget
Who I kissed and where I slept
They all don’t love me anymore, what was it for really

I wanna believe it
But I’m known to be masochistic
I’ll just press on
I’ll press right on
While these valves are strong
I’ll press right on
On

I never could decide, should I hold fast
Or should I just let these dogs lie
Cause who will be the next guy?
Someone I let into my bed but never into my head
Tell me there’s something else beyond
Before my hope’s all gone

I wanna believe it
But I’m known to be masochistic
I’ll just press on
I’ll press right on
While these valves are strong
I’ll press right on
On

You gotta get your heart broken sometime
If you wanna see what lives inside
Now I know everything that’s in mine
So much for magical thinking
And hoping we could meet again
Well there must be some message in it

I wanna believe it
But I’m known to be masochistic
I’ll just press on
I’ll press right on
While these valves are strong
I’ll press right on, on, on

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29, Born Strange 2012

If I could give you anything
I would give you youth
I would give you dreams so wild they’d runaway
I’d make all of the cities strange
And you and I would never ever age
Past twenty-nine

If I could turn the clock then
I’d live in your dorm
My room is on your floor
I’d meet you at the bar
“You’re that stud who plays guitar,
All of the girls know who you are”
I’d say

This is for you
No real moment you can pin down
We'll be digging for proof
We were here

If I could give you anything
I would give you time
I would give you getting all the answers wrong
Keeping secrets from your mom
And driving to your favorite song
On the radio

If I had a DeLeorean
We’d go to that park
We’d go to set off fireworks at night
Our parents don’t think we’re so bright
But until that day we’ve gotta get it right
We’ll be fine

This is for you
No real moment you can pin down
We'll be digging for proof
We were here
But you know the taste of it
So I’m sure we’ll find our way back to it
Our way back, our way

If I could give you anything
I would give you hope
I would lift the curse
And tell you it’s okay
It’s wasted on the young, they say
You’re born a little more each day
I find.

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Undertow, Born Strange 2012

So you spent your life
Just getting ready with the girls
Makeup mirror portal to the world
But who will you be when you step to the mic, step to the mic
Boy you got a heart like a giraffe
Did anybody teach you how to carry that load
You’ve gotta rock and roll, cause where else can it go?
Just fight the undertow

So drink your whiskey up for the people
Who thought you’d never be more than a zero
Your voice is something strange and new
So come on and do what you came here to
On the brink of success and sorrow
Just waiting for a melody to borrow
Your mind is spinning endlessly with dreams they’ll never know
So fight the undertow

Although the night seems starless
Your records warned you about this
The restless sleep until you leap
Yeah

Babe you've got to run like the devil
You’re growing older, staring down the barrel of a gun
Don’t need to find yourself, create your life, the time is right
Only here in dirty New York City
Can they make them so fucked up and pretty
I know you sometimes feel alone, but that’s when you will grow
Just fight the undertow

So you spent your life
Just getting ready with the girls
Makeup mirror portal to the world
But who will you be when you step to the mic, step to the mic
Boy you got a heart like a giraffe
Did anybody teach you how to carry that load
You’ve gotta rock and roll, cause where else can it go?
Just fight the undertow

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Lobotomy, Born Strange 2012

I can’t help but find it strange
Our eyes don’t meet on the train
But I can’t complain
Spent my life on that chain

I knew better than to wait
I know how a bone can break
I know what a liver can take
I’ve got to live awake

Their names don’t matter anymore
I locked that front lobe door
This old mammal brain
Doesn’t know no pain
Still it amazes me
Don’t you find
You can go from fucking to nothing in no time

If I can’t construct his face
I could forget the taste
Of all the talent I’d waste
Just to be put in my place

Goldfish swimming in a bag
Playing reflection tag
Seconds are all we have
So I can't stay mad

Their names don’t matter anymore
I locked that front lobe door
This old mammal brain
Doesn’t know no pain
Still it amazes me
Don’t you find
You can go from fucking to nothing in no time

You’re nothing but a shadow
Or is there life in you yet?
You’re nothing but a shadow
Or is there life in you yet?

Their names don’t matter anymore
I locked that front lobe door
This old mammal brain
Doesn’t know no pain
Still it amazes me
Don’t you find
You can go from fucking to nothing in no time
Still it amazes me
Don’t you find
That we were fucking worth nothing that whole time.

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Suburbs, unreleased 2010

Panic written on your face again
So I suggested we stay friends
And we’ll only kiss when you’ve got the need
Now you come at me like it’s time to feed
You’ll be vicious
And I’ll be nasty
And someday soon, I guarantee, I’ll be your Nancy

Dwelling in the suburbs of your good pleasure
Got this town mapped out measure for measure
I know how to keep you begging and hungry
Though you will never love me
You will never love me

Swarming in just like locusts
Dirty boys with no conscience
Stalking through my subconscious
Been living life on these love hunches
Your eyes will wander
But I am acid
And now you hide from me
Behind sunglasses

Dwelling in the suburbs of your good pleasure
To keep you looking, I had better get clever
And down the line I will surrender my mind
To make you mine

Time and again, the same surprise
I grab your hand, you grab my thighs
I am the girl with the iron heart
You cut me down, I don’t come apart
I got armor
I got weapons too
But I would surely hurt myself
Before I ever hurt you

Dwelling in the suburbs of your good pleasure
Got this town mapped out measure for measure
There ain’t a thing you could do I would mind
So try to be kind, try to be kind, try to be kind

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The Time, unreleased 2010

This hot weather
Like the summer that we got together
You used to scratch and bite
I’d leave on all the lights
This love was loud
Before my heart went underground

I forget
You had me before we met
So where’s my head been at
Why’d I treat you like that
I got such regret
I haven’t even begun to love you yet

Could we grow back together in time?
You find your heart, I’ll find mine?
In my mind we are still gonna climb that hill
If we just find the time

Now I’m on the island
Gotta keep my fingers from dialing
Cause my feelings are strong
But the impulse is wrong
I’ll be that Brooklyn tree
Growing through the sidewalk ain’t easy

Could we grow back together in time?
You find your heart, I’ll find mine?
In my mind we are still gonna climb that hill
If we just find the time

You count my kisses from the sun
You count my tears as they run
Could we count back to the start
Or do people only grow apart?

Could we grow back together in time?
You find your heart, I’ll find mine?
In my mind we are still gonna climb that hill
If we just find the time
If we just find the time

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Lyra and Will, unreleased 2009

It was August back when I wore all black
And you caught me standing still
And I’d trust your heart, set you apart
And surrender to your will

Our love wrought what our bones could not
Set me running from the herd
You were my adventurer
We could walk between the worlds

We could stay here for some time
I'll just eat the fruit as it gets ripe
If I just can hold my friend
Everything will be better then

You don’t you don’t get any older
Your skin your skin just turns to leather
And who is who is really ever-ready?
Their chests are heaving with the lies they’re telling

We could stay here for some time
I'll just eat the fruit as it gets ripe
If I just can hold my friend
Everything will be better then

I waited for the dust to fall
I waited perched on the edge of it all
I gave my skin to seal the seam
Cause the heart it rips from living between

Time goes by, summers die
I’ve got a lover, his eyes are blue
And I don’t mind. You know I’ve done my time.
Most days I don’t notice that he’s not you

Oh but I’d feed the tree for you and me
And I’ll meet you in a dream
He’d never realize when I close my eyes
I am going someplace green

And I’ll wake up with my friend
Find that tear in the air again
To that place we still exist
My heart leaps and I insist-

We could stay here for some time
I'll just eat the fruit as it gets ripe
If I just can hold my friend
Everything will be better then